Earlier this year, Laura texted me "we should podcast". I said fuck no. I had to. I kept signing up for things I didn't have the time to do and I had to start drawing boundaries if I wanted to get anything done at all. And then last month, on my way to Carmel, I popped on the Dear Sugar podcast at the suggestion of one of you to help me process my daddy issues. The episode was about a woman who had married her father - or rather, about a woman that had married a man addicted to alcohol. Thoughts started to brew.
By the time I got to south San Jose, I was on to an episode about how to leave friendships that were no longer working. I pulled off to pee at a Jack-In-The-Box and as I was walking back to my car realized that while Dear Sugar was amazing!, there was something missing for me not only there, but in the podcast genre in general - there was no one talking (from a fem perspective) about all the shit that we encounter both coming to terms with addiction to substances, and all the shit we encounter on the way back. Like, the Dear Sugar friendship episode was great for a general population, but my experiences losing friendships because I no longer drank were much much different. So were my dating issues. So were my daddy issues.
As I cruised through Morgan Hill, I illegally texted Laura while driving, because it couldn't wait. "Let's do this." Some six months after the resounding no.
So here we are. Doing this. And it's all I can think about.
I know what I want it to be as of today. A place for anyone to come to get a deeper perspective on the things we encounter on this path - regardless where we are along it. A discussion about addiction and recovery and all the things before it, between it, around it, and after it. A medium where we can explore different points of view and celebrate the many different, unique and individual experiences we each have on our way back from where we have been. Another step to raise the conversation out of the shadows and into the light. I want interviews and perspectives. I want to put out more tools and more practices and more insights and more hope. I want it all. As per usual.
We will be posting a new episode each Wednesday. Next week, I will be interviewing Laura and getting her entire story. And the week following, Laura will be interviewing me so I can stitch together a beginning, middle, and a now like I can't really do here. Our fourth and fifth episodes move into the subjective - where to begin, how to deal with changing friendships. And then...well, we have a list of 40 things we want to talk about as of now. So.
All my love.